Yesterday I was up at 2:20 am I could not sleep, I tried staying in bed…then I decided to talk to God because He is the only person that you can talk to at that time. After awhile I got up and put on my running clothes not that I wanted to train but I thought if I got dressed the desire might come. My desire to train is just not there anymore, it is January 7, 2015 and I ran only 1 day for the year and I have less than 90 days to go before the race. I am not ready. I am scared. I am overwhelmed. I feel like I will never be ready. Did I say scared? If you don’t train you can’t get what you want so what do I do. They say push through but sometimes you don’t have what it takes to push through on your own. I have never done this much training by myself and it’s so difficult. What was I thinking? Why did I sign up for this race? Am I really cut out for this? My discipline level is weaning the little I had I have used it all up. God I need help. My work schedule and the fact that daylight ends by 5pm really limit my options.
I got up and ran….some days are difficult
Goal: 3 hours Run/Walk
Accomplished: 3 hours of 4min Run 2 min Walk.
It was a slow 3 hours struggled but got it in so I am happy.